Seven years ago today, at about this time, I was driving to Blue Ridge Road to give blood.  I needed to do something, to help in some way.  They were turning people away because they didn’t have the staff to accomodate everyone who felt like I did.

The next day, September 12, 2001, I sat at my desk and listened to New Yorkers’ and Washingtonians’ and Pennsylvanians’ accounts of what happened the day before and cried.  I cried because I heard grown men, cops and firefighters, crying.  I cried because people couldn’t find their loved ones.  I cried because some incredibly brave people on a plane had made the greatest sacrifice they could make for their country.  I cried because I didn’t understand what had happened the day before, and I was afraid.

It was an awful day, that Tuesday.  Full of confusion, fear and paranoia.  I watched Peter Jennings break down on the air.  I saw people jumping to their deaths from the Towers.  I heard answering machine messages from fathers, mothers, husbands and wives who knew they were going to die.

But I woke up today and went about my normal routine.  I didn’t realize the significance of the date until mid-morning.  And I don’t know how to feel about that.

And I still don’t think I understand what happened that day.

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